I could sure use some help with grieving about my loss of Esperanza,
especially in my belief that in trying to save her, I made her suffer at
the end.  She died with blood coming through her nose and mouth and I
wasn't even there because the vet wouldn't let me stay.  I would never do
anything to hurt my baby and I feel so horrible that I didn't put her to
sleep.  I thought that she still had a chance and I was very wrong.  I
feel so deeply sad and guilty about it.  If you have any words of wisdom
that might help, I would sure appreciate it.  Thanks.
 
Linda
[Posted in FML issue 2745]