I could sure use some help with grieving about my loss of Esperanza, especially in my belief that in trying to save her, I made her suffer at the end. She died with blood coming through her nose and mouth and I wasn't even there because the vet wouldn't let me stay. I would never do anything to hurt my baby and I feel so horrible that I didn't put her to sleep. I thought that she still had a chance and I was very wrong. I feel so deeply sad and guilty about it. If you have any words of wisdom that might help, I would sure appreciate it. Thanks. Linda [Posted in FML issue 2745]