Well, I am still behind in everything but getting a little better. Emma: I was so very touched about your naming Millie after me, and one with such a personality, it was my settling factor. I have given up on Ammonia and feel she is no longer with us. I say this and made myself as of 2 1/2 weeks, the longest time period, I mean you all know how as we get older, time flies, it stopped and snailed along over this thing, but still my ears are now always listening for something a little different, my eyes scan the area every single time I come and go. It's my mind that is wrestling with the "wanna" part of me. A lesson to all. I did get over 250 emails and never had I known before how much this is good for the one at loss, it may make us cry a little more, may take some of our time in reading it BUT it brings it to a head and gets us down the road faster. I will have a different attitude now. I mean I did respond to those in need - just never knew how much it did mean to them. But another part of that lesson, I answered each one as I read it. I didn't wait til I felt better, I didn't wait til I knew some answers, I wrote then and I poured my heart out, some probably got lengthier responses than they expected but that too helped me, even if it was over and over I said close to the same things. I have saved those emails and putting them on those floppy things to some day look at again. I thank each and everyone of you. I really do. I have one message for those of you with fat and skinny ferrets that have to mix. You may be aware one out of my blank # of ferrets (I stopped at 3) is over weight and my little pride and joy - my little Budda Belly = Joy. I say don't diet, exercise. Get that little fat squishy thing into a harness and out you go, everyday, even if you don't want to, and up and down a set of stairs if possible and before you know it BOTH of you will get to liking it. You won't have to put the other food up and you will find as you do this more, your little one to be will be more energetic to where it will run around and work off even more. It's just that horrible thing called discipline to do it every day til you get to where you want to. It works and it is healthier on the system than a diet and its easier than trying to cut down one's feed vs keeping it available to another. And now. TIME FOR CONFESSION. During the time I was grieving for Ammonia, I had the opportunity to help relieve a breeder of the rest of her stock. Kym and I went and picked them up and brought them back to Dallas, cleaned ears, clipped nails, gave baths and then distributed them to homes. Out of this, there was one who had been there when I had gone and bought Prell back in February. The first one who had ever bite me hard enough for running blood and now a scar. She is beautiful now a DEW, I didn't have a white. So I made her mine, very sweet and mild and she doesn't bite just takes hold of me, and the first day she was named Dove - didn't flow, next day she had the name Ivory, that was ok but not it, and now she has the name Cheer, cause she did kinda cheer me up and she is up there in my heart with Joy. Well, then I was helping with the transportation of getting some kits down here to shoot out towards Utah and it got ME involved. When Bottle Rocket was up I just felt I wanted him (plus I had pressure from Kathy who thought he was just goregous) so now I am awaiting him. He will not get a cutesy name cause he has a history just like Bill Killian's Benjamin Disraeli Jr. (Dizzy to his friends) and therefore he will stay Rocket as his birthday is the 4th of July and the gang will be called the Exploding (for Rocket) Noble (for Dizzy) Cleaning Crew !!!! Could I stay out of trouble - no, I just had to have the last kit out of Bottle Rocket and Norma Jean. ((YOu may be aware they are due to arrive here tonight - this kit and the ones to go out to Now Colorado, we having the difficulty getting them on to their destination)) and I have also renamed him over and over and over. I am now to the line with these and would like you all's opinion - Brillo Pad (he is silver like a scratch pad and his parents both had 2 names each: Pledge (like in I Pledge Not to Turn the Potty Box Over or I Pledge Not to Throw Out Food), it has a sweet ring to it and it is a wax AND a cleaner. Another I really like is TarnX - there is your silver cleaner and it has that cute little capital X on the back and the boys are the ones to carry the X & Y cromezones (how can I look it up in the dictionary if I can't spell it) and he is the X, a boy. And last a sweet cute name for a kit but will it be dignified for a grown up boy: Bounce, my little bouncy bouncy boy. If you say each name over and over and picture it, they have possibilities, I keep swinging back and forth. so HELP ME Millie and her Exploding Noble Cleaning Crew Easy Off: the most perfect ferret in the whole wide world And Ammonia, may you be in peace where ever that may be Cascade: Well, at least we get more boys in here, Two is just not my kinda statistics at all Ajax: Daa - sta tis tics, who is dat? Dizzy: Ajax, like the dictionary needs to be used for more than just spelling........ Joy: Where is that order form, I'm cancelling this thing, I have enough chores around here to do without adding more butts to tuck into hammocks Prell: Now Now Joy, think of it this way, there are more to criticize Febreze: Yes, and I'll have more to conquer and add marks to my hammock post. Cheer: At least I won't be the new kid on the block, I hate being dosed in that bitter apple before I go out to play And waiting for the new arrivals to make it 10 with hopes Ammonia will come and make it 11. [Posted in FML issue 2731]