Dearest Nancy My heart goes to you, I have no advice to help you except........... Do what your heart tells you to do. I have felt concern many times when I read of those who put their darlings through more than they themselves would want to be put through when they don't want to let go. It takes a big person to put the little guys first and follow what you KNOW is best. You are going to face this time of loss either now or in a month or two, you won't be relieved of the pain but you can do something for them. ONLY you are the one who is with them day in and day out and know their abilities and see their little faces looking to you for help. Listen to them, not to us who from a distance can sympathize but can't live in your shoes. I cry as I write this and fear for the time I may be in your shoes and have your same decision to make. Bless you for thinking so rationally. Millie and her noble cleaning crew [Posted in FML issue 2510]