Dear Drew: I want you to know that you are not alone, for many of us grieve with you. I think you did the right thing. It may have been selfish of you to let them continue CPR because your baby must have been suffering and you may have only allowed the suffering to continue. That was an act of true love that you gave your baby. I have lost several of my angels and one recently in May. Then I lost my 13 year old Siamese in July, then his 15 year old mom in October. I have had a terrible year for both my health and my animals. So I honestly know what you are going thru. You seem so very mature for 13 years old. I know it hurts so much now, but in the future, you will have more little ones and you will be a terrific mom. Those of us who truely love our little guys make the very best parents to them. I have 6 little monsters who are truely the lite of my life. I offer you my deepest sympathy. Debbie mailto:[log in to unmask] [Posted in FML issue 2491]