I am finally feeling a bit better after allowing myself to be very upset all weekend about Tequila's passing. I guess what bothers me the most is that I figured it would be complications of the adrenal gland disease/Lysodren treatment that would take her. She was doing so well, healthy appetite and all. I just didn't expect it to be something totally unrelated to take her, and not this quickly. I feel really guilty, like I should have picked up on this sooner and just didn't, because I wasn't looking for it. I'm currently in the Nursing program and one of my instructor's has been saying "You'll miss more by not looking, than by not knowing" - I guess that point has been well driven home now. My boyfriend told me to stop kicking myself, that I did a lot for her that other may not have. She wasn't supposed to live very long at all when I had acquired her, a few months I think. She was with me for 1 year & 3 months. Even so, I wish it could have been longer. I would like to thank everyone who sent me personal e-mail messages of condolences. It really means a lot to know that others understand your grief and take a few minutes of their time to convey their sympathies to you. Thank-you. Holly [Posted in FML issue 1787]