Debbie, It broke my heart when I read your story on fml. I know our club members join me in saying how very sorry we are to hear about your tragic loss. It sounds like Pat Nothnagle was a God-send!! Sometimes you just want to scream - WHY? But it just doesn't help. We lost one of our little girls this past fall. If we could have found out before-hand what was going on with our little girl, we could have saved her. It's very hard to lose such a sweet little blessing from God. Know that she is in heaven looking down on you and your two babies. She will never be far away from you. Mary Peoria Area Ferret Connection [Posted in FML issue 1475]