Oh God John do I know what you are going thru having lost my little white cloud RACY on Nov. 1st this year but how much worse for you to lose Buddy on Christmas Eve of all days. I am so very sorry he is gone and I know how bad you are feeling right now. I have my own little Guardian Angel ferret in Heaven and now you have one too. He will watch over you and yours and try to tell you when something is wrong so listen carefully to your gut feelings in the future for they will probably be influenced by Buddy as well. If you ever want to talk about him or just need to talk period feel free to write or call me for I will always listen with a extremely sympathetic heart and mind. I hope you had a decent x-mas considering all but if not hopefully next year will be better. Buddy has left a spot for a new ferret to join your family now and you can honor his memory by taking in a ferret in dire need. He would love you even more for that I know. RACY left a spot in my family too and it ened up getting filled with not 1 fuzzy but 2!!!! The love I have in my heart for her still is there but I was now able to extend that piece of my heart to include Pearl and Tribble who were both in very precarious situations. They cannot take her place of course and I wouldn't even want or allow that but they help to ease the pain and they honor RACY's memory most grandly. I hope you will find peace in that and soon help another loving fuzzy by sharing the love and attention you had given to Buddy. He will know what you have done and smile down upon you. Good luck and give me a jingle by e-mail or phone. BYE! 208-342-7292 Kelleen, RACY, Shyla, Rowdy, Lightstar, Fang, Silverada, Meetoo, Precious, Tribble & the indominable Pearl! And the 4 petsitted, Kassandra, Kit Kat, Chip and Kikki! Kelleen & The INSANE Animal House [Posted in FML issue 1425]