Kelleen, I'm not sure if you'll get this but you deserve it to be sent...... Even as sh***y as my life as been this month, nothing could ever compare to the loss of ones child. I know you, as myself and everyone else here in FMLand, consider Racy to be your child. I am positive that Racy knows it was not your fault, and i'm sure Racy forgives you. My heart goes out to you, please don't close yourself out from FMLand, your opinons and expertise are needed and wanted. I will light a candle for you and Racy tonight and Beowulf, Pandora and myself will observe a moment of silence.... love, and peace Mike Beowulf -fuzzy kisses for Kelleen Pandora -even more fuzzy kisses for Kelleen [Posted in FML issue 1364]