I know exactly how you felt about your loss of Shadow. I too, had an older fellow "Chooch" who I was madly in love with. He was my best friend. He died two weeks before Christmas last year and I miss him dearly. He waits for you at the Rainbow Bridge, so when it's your turn, you can all go to heaven together. Just remember that. Fran Schreiber Secretary LOS- New Jersey Division [Posted in FML issue 1299]