I can't help but think on Annie Lennox's song "No more I love yous..." when I think about Cody now. I had Cody euthanized on Saturday, June 17. He was going downhill. He had too many siezures and could not keep down any food I gave him. It was a _VERY_ difficult decision to make. His weight had dropped from 840 grams pre-op to less than 600 grams on Saturday. I tried most of the suggestions giving to me on the FML but they did not seem to help. It was only the previous two days that Cody took a turn for the worst. He would walk 5 feet and then collapse out of lack of energy. He seemed to want to just let go. I don't like use anthropomorphism, but on Friday Cody put some of his toys back in the cabinet under the coffee table (he never did this before; only removed them before). A friend on mine took me to the vet on Saturday and I said my last goodbye to Cody and told him I loved him. He was quiet when the needle went in and I didn't even realize he had passed until I looked at his side to see him not breathing. I buried him in his favorite towel at Washington's Crossing State Park along the Delaware River. It was a wonderfully peaceful spot on a beautiful day. A few roses were set atop Cody's grave and a small bouquet of fleabane flowers. When I cleaned my house this past weekend, I kept finding "Cody-fied" things. I emptied the trash can in the bathroom (Cody's favorite sleeping spot) and found three sponge balls he had put in there. The house is quiet and lonely. I may get a few ferrets in the future, but not immediately. Cody was a very special part of my life for 5 years and it is not easy to fill that niche. I had to stop a few time while writing this because it upsets me quite a bit. I hope you think about Cody tonight when you play with your carpet sharks and appreciate every minute with them because a tragedy like mine can pop up unexpectedly. When your ferret gets into trouble in your house, just pause for a second and tell yourself that you have a ferret and ferrets do ferret want to do. Let him have fun--it may be a little mess to clean up, but you'll have a happy ferret. Special thanks to Anne Charbonneau for your support and to everyone else who had given me suggestions and hope! Thank you, Jim Cristea [Posted in FML issue 1230]