I absolutely could not get thru Gary Holowicki's post this AM on Hershey and Squeeky without breaking down in a pool of tears..... It brought back memories of my little Molly.....the summer of 93 I took my guys to a ferret show and they got the greenies. It was horrible. Molly was my first rescue - she was only 4 years old and a very small ferret - she weighed 1/2 lb. Needless to say, when you are that small, you don't have a lot of excess weight to lose. The greenies wiped her out. She was skin and bones. I was hand feeding her but she was so weak. One night, her breathing was so labored it woke me up. I brought her in bed with me, I held her and we talked our last talk....I told her it was ok, that she didn't have to try anymore, it was too hard and I understood. She very quietly just stopped breathing and crossed over Rainbow Bridge.. Ann Davis told me that many times they hang on for us.....we just have to tell them it's ok for them to go.......Ann is right.....she just needed my permission.....my only comfort thru this was that she died in my arms. I will never forget that....it was so much better than having her die alone in an animal hospital or by euthanasia. I still miss my little Molly sunshine.....I haven't been to a show since. Until there is a vaccine for the greenies, my guys are off the circuit. I still blame myself - Molly came along for the ride....she wasn't entered in the show - I just didn't want to board her at an animal hospital - it would have been safer for her if I had. In fact, Molly NEVER left the hotel room - I brought the greenies into my room from handling an affected ferret (although I didn't realize it until after). I washed my hands before handling my own ferrets, but I didn't change my clothes, and that was my mistake. Anyway, I agree with Gary - sometimes you have to be strong and tell them it's ok - they tried their best and now it's time to go.....but hopefully, we will all be reunited some day......I just have to believe that little ferrets (and all other animals) go to heaven too. Debbie Riccio WNYFLFA Rochester, NY [Posted in FML issue 1185]