Marie-Agnes There comes a time in one's life when they have to give up the things they love so much. Over the past 20 plus years I have had many, many babies and yes they have all crossed over the rainbow bridge save one. Each time one left he or she took a piece of me with him or her. Then all of a sudden I got old and got some health problems to the point I could not take care of my little ones anymore. I was down to one, Pepper, who was young and a ball of fire but being alone was not an option for him, getting more was not an option for me so I did what I felt necessary, I let him go to my friend who runs a local shelter, gave her some money and asked her to please take care of my little guy. I can go see him anytime I want but something is missing from my life and it is the sound of little feet running around their room. Still brings sadness to me just to think about it but I know he is much better off with his friends and a good care giver. Now if I were younger then he would be here with 10 or so buddies to play with but I cannot be selfish and do realize that he is much better off where he is now I hope this helps Patrick [Posted in FML 7876]