This is hard to write, so please bear with me. And as I'm not gifted with the elegant writings. I try to keep my personal life just that, personal. But am bringing it here to clarify some misunderstandings. I apologize if this offends anyone. Recently, headaches have occurred, bad ones. My memory is affected with them, & of course being in pain makes me short tempered. Icare. saw a SARHA Dr as I'm just 1 in a sea of millions without health insurance. With a cat scan, x-rays, they found a sot on my brain, left side, rear. They Dr made a *educated guess* at my request that he's thinking cancer. More tests follow later this month, MRI's & such. To say that this knocked the wind from me is pretty accurate. This affects my job, my livelihood as I do hospice health care. So, it's upset me. I also was training Nicole Berrey to take over the shelter at some point in next 3-4 yrs. She is now president & & I'll be there to help her but had to step down. I know I've just recently reopened as there were no working shelters in Al. Couldn't see having ferrets PTS as there's nowhere for them to go. One high kill shelter I work with gives 3 days from enter to PTS for ferrets. As I freaked out, I'd contacted what shelters were within a minimal drive from me, those I knew may have room, no responses. So, I asked Debbie Whorley if she could take some in, in a text. Then we spoke on the phone. I explained everything to her. She asked me to come & stay with her, to help her for a period. I agreed as my job is on hold. So, I planned to go & help Debbie to help me place as many of my 28 as possible. She has a knack for moving them faster than most. I would be there to take care of my crew as well as do any help she needed. I'd be bringing all my crews junk, meds, soups, bedding, litters, ect. And then donating to her shelter for helping us. I admire & love Debbie, as she knows. If I didn't, I'd never have asked her for help. But things have been misunderstood & feelings hurt. Other people, I want to say. Not Debbie & I. After talking with a couple of my closest friends, one of 36 yrs & has no ferrets, another of 13 yrs & does. I explained everything. I wanted their advice on which way I should go. They too, agreed with me that it's asking alot of Debbie to undertake this, as she has so many herself. Her heart is bigger than Texas. But both of our lives & those of ferrets would be uprooted & havoc would follow. So, as such a generous offer of help from Debbie, I gratefully decline. To much for the both of us. And I do love those Hotlanta peeps. I will keep & place the ferrets myself. Stay here & do what I must. And keep my sharp tongue to myself, as the headaches worsen. I try not to offend anyone. And now, all the dirty laundry is hung out there -- Sandi Robinson Heaven Scent Ferret Rescue/Shelter Midland City,Al 36350 334-405-2599 Petfinder AL 132 http://fuzzyslave.com http://www.petfinder.com/shelters/AL132 no kill we always need volunteers Please help us with funding & do a Good Search with us!! We also are in need of sponsors for the older hospice needs. Just $5 a month will help. Remember God in all we do,for without HIM,we are nothing [Posted in FML 7730]