Monday I got the best news ever, I have a heart anomalie that I have had problems with off and on for years. Monday I was told that it had finally resolved. I was elated. Tuesday my bestest little weasel ever had to leave for the bridge. Maybe he thought that I would be so happy about the heart thing that I wouldn't hurt too much, but he was wrong. If one of the Bridge greeters would watch out for my little man Fester I would appreciate it. He will be a big ole white boy with dark chocolate eyes. He loved to play and might be a little confused as to how he came to be there, you see he was only 4 years old and probably thought as I did that he would be with me for a while longer. A couple of months ago I took Festerman in for his yearly vaccinations, for the first time in 4 years he had a reaction, a really bad one. Afterwards he was never the same. He had to learn to walk and was very timid, something that he never was before. In the last two weeks of his life he started having seizures, bad ones. Wednesday they were the worse and he was so scared. I couldn't stand to see it anymore, I was keeping him alive for me, he couldn't run and play. He couldn't figure out who his cage mates were. And the worse was that he was trying to bite me hard every chance he got. He had always been the most sweetest, playful, fun loving little man ever. Now all he could do was lay there and be afraid and have seizures. This was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Because I feel like this was my fault. I was the human, I made the decision to get the vaccinations that eventually took his little life force away. Please welcome him to the bridge and tell him that his momma misses him terribly and is truly sorry. Kim [Posted in FML 7075]