as i type my dearest sweetest Aona lays in my arms-- dying... she is passing blood and was seizing without stop-- I am sure she's blown an ulcer-- now she's resting peacefully against my heart-- but seems to have slipped into a coma.. there is no vet in our town after hours and the nearest good vet is hours away.. i know in my heart she won't make the trip-- so I hold her and say my good byes.. too many in such a short time.. she is part of Dr. W's GNRH study and had just gotten another shot last week--- do you think I have killed her??.. oh, god ... I hope she understands I was trying to help her and other ferrets-- I so wanted to find a cure for adrenal disease.. but I just can't risk it.. anymore-- I pray my other study kids survive the next year-- I have lost 3 of them so far... I just didn't think it was related until now.. Now, I am so scared for my babies.. I am so sorry Nala, Bandit and now Aona--- I'll report this all to Dr. W and see what he thinks.. but, I just can't do it anymore.. I hope for better result for others and I hope the desolorin turns out for the best-- I myself will wait until we KNOW. thank you my friends for listening and please PRAY for my Aona and for the other's who have recently had the shot,,, I will be holding vigil for them as well,, Kodo, Thunder, Lightning,Clyde, Stewart and Mackenzie-- please pray I am wrong-- and they will be safe... please pray for Aona to be painfree and to cross the Bridge knowing I LOVED her..too much.. But I LOVED her. [Posted in FML 6481]