On March 7th. I had to help Mateo cross to the Bridge. I am utterly crushed and filled with sorrow. Mateo was such a sweet, happy soul. And a total Mommy's boy. "Hello", he'd whisper in my ear every morning when I picked him up. "Hello" I'd whisper back. Mateo made me smile every single day we were together. The bed was not properly made unless Mateo helped me make it. Pouncing on the sheets, playing tug of war with the covers. Running around in a joyous hide and seek game. All the time with that happy dooking filling the room. Mateo was also my only jumper. He'd jump from the bed to the dresser, all his limbs straight out. "Weeeeeee! To the infinite and beyond!" - he seemed to say. Always up for a cuddle, I'd often scoop Mateo up and sing to him an adapted version of the Hey Mickey song while we danced together across the room - "Hey Matthew you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind! Hey Matthew! Hey Matthew!" Matthew was his nickname, it's Mateo in English. I'll still sing to you, my baby, I hope you can hear me at the Bridge. I found Mateo's ping pong ball today. I bawled my eyes out. It was the only toy he loved, and the only ball Matilda would let him have. Mateo pushed it around the whole house going faster, faster, faster! If I made it bounce on the floor, Mateo would mimic every bounce of the ball. Mateo was always a looker. My handsome baby. He had the cutest teddy bear face. I adored his nose, stained dark with a little T. And everyone just had to notice his gorgeous, lush coat. So many memories come to my mind all at once. I feel as if I could write a book on how wonderful you were and how much you enriched my life. "Wait for me at the Bridge" - I whispered in your ear. "Will you wait for me, please? You'll be happy and healthy again at the Bridge". I wished for a magic cure but there was none. Your kidneys had shut down. I don't know why. You were the only one who still danced and dooked continuosly. You were the only one not on meds. My only consolation is that not a day went by without me kissing you, cuddling you and telling you how much I loved you. Dance on, Mateo. When the time comes, we will be together for eternity. Missing you so very much, Your mommy Alicia and your siblings Matilda & Lucas [Posted in FML 6270]