I'm just kicking and screaming right now. I'm so mad at medicine and myself for expecting it to not fail me. I trust my Doctors whole heartedly maybe even foolishly and blindingly. I never expected the call I got today 4 hours after I dropped Django off for her lumpectomy. I know I'll be flamed for going through with the surgery after we discovered the 2nd degree block but my doctor said she'll be fine and hooked up to the ekg the whole time. So why then did my baby give up after the surgery and leave me. We'd been monitoring her heart and she wisent skipping a beat at all. The Dr said her heart problem was normal. Just this morning she was so alive and curious and she even danced yesterday when its been a long while since she has. I just lost Ivan in November from lymphoma and now my sweet girl Django. Why... Kristina Borgstrom [Posted in FML 6240]