I'm just kicking and screaming right now. I'm so mad at medicine and
myself for expecting it to not fail me. I trust my Doctors whole
heartedly maybe even foolishly and blindingly. I never expected the
call I got today 4 hours after I dropped Django off for her lumpectomy.
I know I'll be flamed for going through with the surgery after we
discovered the 2nd degree block but my doctor said she'll be fine and
hooked up to the ekg the whole time. So why then did my baby give up
after the surgery and leave me. We'd been monitoring her heart and she
wisent skipping a beat at all. The Dr said her heart problem was
normal. Just this morning she was so alive and curious and she even
danced yesterday when its been a long while since she has. I just lost
Ivan in November from lymphoma and now my sweet girl Django. Why...

Kristina Borgstrom

[Posted in FML 6240]