Today was overcast and sprinkling as we traveled to see a good ferret vet. A lot of days a like that here in Mississippi. We saw Dr. L in Starkville and he confirmed that Lily indeed had a large spleen. But he also felt that she really need a ultra sound and blood work up to see what was really going on inside. A man a several years of experience he new he felt some things that were off. He referred us the Veterinary college hospital there . The College was nice enough to see us almost right away. Lily was a angle for this long trip that involved strangers poking and prodding. Fizban rode along incase we she had surgery and needed blood. I kind of knew what the out come was going to be. I hoped, I prayed maybe it was just a large spleen we could have removed. They said it would be a couple hours. We left to eat for one, then returned. When the Dr. and student in training came to the waiting room. I felt the sadness that came with them. Lily does have a large spleen . The spleen has a large mass in the center. Several of her abdominal lymph nodes are very large. Both adrenal glands are also very large. Lily has very bad cancer. With her age and how progressed her disease is there is really no hope that any surgery will save her. We have brought her home for the week. It has been apparent to me that she is not comfortable this last couple days. So really her quality of life is short. Monday we will send her on the Dook Dook train across the Rainbow Bridge. She will be greeted by many she shared her life with. Lightning, Tubby, Bilbo, Winni, Zeus, Buffy. When I walked to the car to get her soup before the trip home, a strange sort of silence was around me. The sky had turned a very mournful Grey. The air was still. No leaves blew. It seemed everything in the Earth was crying for me. Please pray that this week will be as easy and pain free as possible for Lily. She deserves so much better and more than I can do now. What more is there to say. We love her so much. [Posted in FML 5769]