This is the latest message from Helen in her own words. She tried to post to the FML herself, but it didn't work. Please feel free to contact Helen and continue to wish her well. She really is a God Send to more than just the ferrets. Helen's email addy: ilovemy 13ferrets @ aol. com (remove spaces) Hello everyone, I know it has been a long time since I have wrote but I have been very sick. I have been in and out of the hospital and the medicines I was on made me feel so crappie. The doctors have taken me off all medicines now and I seem to feel a little better. My legs are not good and I still cannot go up stairs so I am on my lap top since I cannot get in my computer room without help. Going to the doctors is tough. I have steps I have to go down steps which I manage but getting back up it takes my daughter and husband to get me up or Angel when Bob isn't here but he tries to be here. I use a wheel chair to get around because I can't walk much. My low back gives me a lot of problems and hurts really bad if I stand to long. Next week I go for another bone marrow and if all is well I will be going to Helmens Cancer Center for high doses of Chemo and radiation and then the stem cell transplant. I don't know how long I will be there. DR Spillvogal said he thinks 2 or 3 weeks. I am not going to like that. Well, that is the update on me. As for the ferrets they are doing OK my daughter is doing a good job on top of canning. I know it is hard on her and can't wait till I am well enough to help her. I do have sad news though I think I told you we lost our Polar Bear well not long ago we lost Little Ricky and 2 Sundays ago we lost our sweet Mandy who would have been 9 today. She was the last of my originals that I adopted from the PFRA. My heart is just broke and they will be missed. That is about it my hands are shaking to much so I will say so long for now and if I am up to it I will write again. I miss all of you and you are all in my prayers. God Bless You Hugs, Love and Prayers Helen Helping Hands Ferret Rescue He who learns must suffer. And even in our sleep, pain that cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart. And in our own despair, and against our will, comes Wisdom by the awful Grace of God...Aeschylus [Posted in FML 5747]