friends... first...because of my "public" life...it may not seem so...but i am a VERY private person... so...in that light...i was not going to go public about the loss of my "Bugs" this morning...we had to help him to the bridge... he was our late "Uh-Oh"'s brother...he was 7 1/2 and blind and had only 3 legs...he did not die of a disease...at least not one i knew of...it was just his time...but he refused to leave on his own...i could not watch him suffer any longer...this morning it got to the point where he could not even stand to pee...when you only have 3 legs...and the back 2 no longer work right...you can no longer stand... i made the call...i made the appt...we went in... i was worried that he did not understand...he had told Kim Fox a couple days ago that he was afraid to go...even tho i told him about the Bridge...and all at the vet's...i was still worried he did not understand... so...i called Kim after i got home...i asked her to talk to him...she did so a bit later...and i got this e-mail from her... ------- Kim Fox to me 4:12 pm ps He is sending me visions of beautiful colors. Thought you'd like to know. Sorry can't tell you what it means exactly. -------- *I* know what it meant....he was excited...awed...whatever...he was blind almost his whole life here on earth!!!...he wanted to share that unique experience he was having.... HE CAN SEE NOW!!!! :):) you have no idea what this means to me...i know he is there...and better...and happy... even if KIM did not know what it meant...she shared that piece of information with me...and i knew the significance... and i knew he was ok... this may seem trivial to some...but i know others may think...wow...just that small contact...and it can change everything... i thank God that i made that phone call...i am ok now...and i know he is, too... what started off as so hard to deal with.... ended with a smile...a sigh... thank you, Kim...i hope others who are concerned...worried... curious....take the time to contact you and find the peace you have given me... love, kat -- KAT JUST PLAIN KAT KITYKAT *REEEEEEEEER* [moniker thanks to April] and her Krew of 14 plus one very spoiled cat.... http://ferretlover97.terrabox.com [Posted in FML 5729]