What it is the hardest thing for a mother to do? Know when to take their loved one to their dr. to send them to the rainbow bridge. this past sunday i noticed that lil breezie wasnt doing to good. so i watched over her all day long, made sure she had plenty to drink and eat. but she wouldnt eat then i noticed that she had the black stools and i kept cleaning her and later on that night i saw it in her eyes that she was tired and wasnt wanting to join the bridge. well as i was holding her i begged FATHER to take her to the after life. well monday i had to go to work and i was hoping that she would have been TAKEN while i was gone. well that dint happen at all. when i got home i went strait to the room and found my lil breezie in the most awkward position and i knew that it was her time to go. so i gave her lil rump a bath and called her dr. to make sure he was there. i cried all the way over there and i cried while dr. gill put her medicine in her lil body and i told her all about the bridge and how she was going to be joining bandit and have a great life without any pain ever again. and as she took her last breath i held her and dr. gill made me put her down so he could double check to make sure she was gone. GOD IT WAS SO HARD. i felt like i let her down. why couldnt i have saved her???WHY?? DARN IT, SOMETHING SO SMALL AND FULL OF LOVE CAN JUST RIP OUT A HEART. and she did. she ripped out mine the day i brought her home. she was the tiniest thing i ever did see in a grownup fuzzy. dont have a clue how old she was. but she could still whoop up on the boys that she lived with. well now she is flying high over the bridge without me. GO WITH GOD MY LIL ANGEL AND HOLD THAT PLACE FOR ME....send me kisses when you can..dook on... debbie LIVE WITH THE ANGELS MY LOVE, MY ROCK, MY SISTER KELLY ANN HUTSON (RIP--3/16/'63 to 2/10/'06) SCHRAMMEN REEVES A VERY PROUD MOTHER OF A MARINE: WILLIAM MITCHELL (NACHO) '01 TO '05 A VERY PROUD MOTHER OF: CHRIS A. HAPPY SLAVE TO MY CARPETSHARKS!!!! stinky, irving, banditt(RIP-8/9/'06), puck, baby, chuckie, breezie(RIP-11/27/'06), possum and frisky [Posted in FML 5443]