Hello FML'ers Although I'm still very much in shock from the unexpected passing of my 'little Missy', Sasha, this past Tuesday, the immense outpouring of kind words, sincerity, and support I've received from all of you has been genuinely overwhelming and for that, I am very grateful. I wish every one of you could have known Sasha b/c she was such a beautiful, silly, roley-poley little girl with lots of "hidden" personality. I am working on a eulogy for her but it will take some time for me to be able to think clearly enough to put my thoughts on paper. A few days ago, however, out of nowhere, a friend who did not know of Sasha's passing sent me a song with a message that could not have been more perfectly fitting for this moment. It instantly brought my "sweet pea" to mind and I'm certain it always will ... The song is "Golden Slumbers" by the Beatles - such a fitting message that I feel I can connect to my "little Missy" with and her to me, too - as if we're talking to each other in one of our many normal, everyday conversations and telling each other how to each move forward from here. "Once there was a way to get back homeward Once there was a way to get back home Sleep pretty darling do not cry And I will sing a lullabye Golden slumbers fill your eyes Smiles awake you when you rise Sleep pretty darling do not cry And I will sing a lullabye Once there was a way to get back homeward Once there was a way to get back home Sleep pretty darling do not cry And I will sing a lullabye" Well, I just wanted to make sure that everyone knew how thankful I am for all of the support, caring words, and stories you've taken the time to write and send my way. I will be adding all of these things to a special memories book I'm creating so I'll have something tangible to reflect back on whenever I need it. Hopefully soon, too, I'll have a website up and running but that might be a while since I'm NOT webpage savvy in the least bit! As for Snowball, he seems to be doing pretty OK and maybe even basking in the attention, now that he's not in Sasha's shadow (she was definitely the Alpha).... I do believe he does miss her presence but maybe it's best that I keep this a one ferret home right now, for his sake, since neither Sasha nor Snowball ever cared much for other furkids of any kind besides each other. I just want Snowy to know now how special he is and always has been (even when Sasha got more attention sometimes from others) and don't want him to have to compete with another furkid again if he doesn't want or need the companionship. Snowball and I are the new "dynamic duo" now and I'm enjoying having him along when I run errands or when he's cuddled on my chest and asleep while I'm in bed and the bed covers are tucked just under his head. He looks just like Stuart Little (the cartoon mouse) in a 'big person' bed then and it's absolutely the most adorable sight to see!!! With much thanks, Jennifer and Snowball Remembering and missing our Sashee Washee (Sasha Marie) 1.11.99 - 3.21.06 [Posted in FML issue 5194]