Sean and I brought Rocky back home for Christmas. He set up this little memorial. I just added the photo in this really blurry camera phone pic. Poor little guy keeps running up here with all his brushes, leashes, toys, colors, you name it and trying to fit them into the three urns. He goes temporarily blank and tries to fit a square peg into a round whole. He'll figure things out in time. Rocky's ashes are in the memorial box with the figure. Rocky's leash and most special things are in the one that will display a gorgeous photo of Rocky or Sean and Rocky. That other urn came with the ashes. I have no idea what he'll do with that if anything. For now he wants all three things open so he can add things, change them out, etc until he is comfortable with how it's set up. http://pictures.sprintpcs.com/share.do?invite=uEQr4dm9Ykzf48AUkhCx&shareName=MMS He keeps that little memorial up for now. As you can see he's dressed "Rocky" for Christmas just like he does EVERY year. Cute photo: http://pictures.sprintpcs.com/share.do?invite=sEpr4pmhYkhukz3UhhEa&shareName=MMS He is finished the King Rocky story. It'll be forever before I type it up though. He finished the story last week. And I got some awesome video footage of the two of them snuggling by the Christmas tree that we had just filmed putting up. Renee Downs is here feeding him, hugging him, taking him out shopping all night. He needs that. Scott and Chet are great now! I'm up and down, but I'm getting better. Witting to you all and getting feelings out to people who "understand" has made all the difference. I am dumbfounded (that's an understatement) at all of the beautiful and helpful notes I've been receiving. I can't tell you how much that helps me. I look forward to answering every single one of them too! It might be a long time from now. But I'll do it. That little boy has quite a collection of 'thoughts' from wonderful and supportive people here typed up back in his room with him. He smiles when he reads them. Sometimes he cries a little. It's all good. He has already made the decision to love a new baby someday. So, after I feel better and the holidays are over we'll discuss that further with him. I know this sounds dramatic, but I'm not exaggerating when I say that I don't know what I would have done without the sweet notes in the FML and in my mailbox. I was falling apart and scared that it was getting worse each day, not better. You all gave me good advise and inspiring words that I hold very close to my heart. I'm a bit better. Because I took all of your words to heart and I've acted on some of the advice. Thank you so much. Boy this is one bitter sweet and very special Christmas. I have so much to be thankful for! Wolfy <http://wolfysluv.jacksnet.com> [Posted in FML issue 5101]