Alexandra You are a true ferret momma, only a mother who truly loves (from her heart) her little ones will take great risks, go to any length, and make those sacrifices to defend them, in the process of risking her own life and limb. I am so sorry for your loss and Lilys condition. Yes, our prayers are answered, but not always in the way we want them to be. I prayed for Eppy to come home, he did. I prayed when Odin got out, to come home, a year later, and he never has. I myself have given Odin's life over to his creators hands, and accepted that I may never see him again. He lives on in my heart however. Sometimes our answers are bittersweet, but they are something we learn from also. with my deepest sympathies donna [Posted in FML issue 4820]