Friends, It is with a heavy heart that I tell you that Bandit died today. He made it through his surgery but it was very complicated. It was the right adrenal, when they were debulking it, they knicked it. He had two large insulinomas on his pancreas and a cyst on his spleen. After surgery, he wasn't doing well, so I raced home and picked up my largest ferret Spunky to give Bandit blood. I stayed there through the blood transfusion, and they ran me out till later. The minute I got home to put Spunky back, the call came from the vet and I went right back up there. I told the vet he should have let me stay. Those of you that went through the loss of my Gizmo, know that my biggest fear was to have another die alone, without me....it happened again....I cannot tell you how horrible I feel!!! He was perkier the last couple days, and I had a fleeing thought that maybe he was a little better and that I should not go through with the surgery...but I did, and therefore shortened his life!! Bandit was my very first ferret. Out of the three originals..... I only have Mitzi left. I sure wonder sometimes if it's just better to let them go on their own instead of giving them surgery. I feel like part of me is gone and it's funny, I can't even feel anything right now....I couldn't even take him home with me. He is the ferret that started it all for me...I feel like I let him down....this was supposed to be a routine biopsy and left adrenal surgery....so sad.... please say a special prayer for Bandit tonight.....he didn't deserve to leave this way. With the second piece of my heart missing, Lynn Barker please check out my web site: http://fuzzysleepcenter.terrabox.com/ proud member of S.A.F.E. www.saferrets.org join our ferret craft group [log in to unmask] [Posted in FML issue 4496]