I have been a lurker on the list for a couple of years now but maybe some of you remember last year I lost my white boy Otis to Adrenal and insulinoma. It was a 3 year battle and one that we in the end lost. I told myself I wouldnt put another pet through that again. I watched him suffer and I hated making the decision of when to let him go. I did have to finally put him to sleep. At around 9:00 last night Otis's best buddy Clara also went to ferret heaven. She was eight years old. She had been not eating well for a few weeks now and I have been hand feeding her like I did for Otis. She must of had insulinoma because she had a seizure before she died. It was very sad but only lasted a few minutes and she was gone. I held her while she slowly stopped breathing in my arms and the little light left her eyes. It is very strange to know she is not here anymore becuase she was always so happy and so full of life. I am very glad that I didnt know what was really wrong with her. I would of done the same for her as I did Otis if I had of known but I dont feel that would of been right. Clara was my first and will be my last ferret. I cant live with the fact that these guys always die of these illnesses. But Clara was happy till the day she died. By the time I found her she was already too far gone and I couldnt of helped her. She will be buried out back under the trees with her favorite blankie and her cookie monster. I think I gave her the best life she could of had and I am glad she didnt have to suffer like Otis did. Today is a sad day. Sandee could you please see that her and her big brut of a brother Otis are rejoined at the bridge. He is lost without her I am sure. Lisa and the spirit of Clara and Otis [Posted in FML issue 4397]