It has been 3 weeks since Tyler was helped to the Rainbow Bridge. I have been in such a state of mourning that I haven't been able to write about him until today. Tyler was diagnosed with lymphoma and was gone within a week. That was the worst week of my life as I watched my little man go downhill so fast - he was only about 4 years old. When I decided that it was time to consult with my vet regarding Tyler's time left with me, I wrapped him in a special blanket with a beautiful cloud pattern and a special Rainbow afghan made by his friend Diddy. After a long consultation with Dr. Gould, it was decided that Tyler needed to be helped to the bridge. I laid him on my lap on his Cloud Blanket and covered him with his Rainbow Afghan. Dr. Gould administered the injection and I kissed and held my little man, singing to him while he left. He took with him a huge piece of my heart and there is a big hole in our house without Tyler there to make us laugh. Sandee, in the past few weeks I have tried very hard to picture Tyler at the Rainbow Bridge, but I would be most grateful if you could let me know that he is happy and playing with his new friends - Gizzy, Roscoe and Smudgie, to name a few. Tyler was my little deaf boy and I would love to know that he is a hearing ferret now, enjoying all the wonderful sounds that he missed while here - birds singing, the wind gently blowing the leaves, ferrets dooking..... When Kim Fox did a reading for my Molly, she saw Tyler, the Clown, and that is the most wonderful description I have ever about Tyler. Tyler was the first of my 6 ferrets to leave me. I have always cried when someone has told me of the loss of a fuzzie, but I had no idea the pain went so deep. To all who have gone through this loss, I send my deepest sympathies and warmest prayers for comfort. In closing, I did have the most wonderful thing happen on the way to work last week. As I was driving along on the expressway, I looked up in the sky and there was a cloud that looked like Tyler running down the hall in pursuit of the cat - head held high, tail straight out and little back hunched. I thank God everyday for that sign that Tyler will be with me forever in spirit. Phyllis Spy Mom to Duchess, Tobey,"Tyler" (this is where I always inserted his name), Jenny, Molly and Joshua [Posted in FML issue 4348]