I would like to thank everyone who responded to my poem about Toby, I only had him for one week but his mental pain touch my hart, I re home ferrets for the Dutch ferret foundation and sometimes I have to find homes for ferrets that I know can't be re-homed, either because they need constant medical care or because of abuse, be it from not knowing or not caring, these ferrets nearly always end up staying with me, consequently in last few years I never have a ferret longer than a few years, but in the time they are with us they get all available medical care and tons of TLC, for every ferret that goes to rainbow ridge I write a poem in memory, this next one was written for a male ferret named Tidor who had mammon tumours, he stayed 14 months before we sent him on his way, I think that in those 14 months we more than made up for the 4 years of abuse, he love us and told us every day how much with his kisses, I would like to dedicate his poem to all the shelter mums who live day to day with the pain of trying to mend the wrong done by stupid people Stephenie Tidor Once again one I love Has left this mortal plain Once again I made the decision To release him from his pain Once again I eased the way To the place where all souls fly Once again I wonder why This decision still makes me cry Once again I wonder Why I take the ones in need Once again I'm left in doubt And a hart that slowly bleeds You were in desperate need of a home And you put your trust in me Once again it seems this was fait Something just meant to be Despite the fact that losing them Is always hard to bear Once again I know without doubt That if the need is there I would do it once again [Posted in FML issue 4319]