My heart is sick with worry and I'm turning to my ferret friends for help. Please include a prayer for my sick Tenaka, our joy for the past year and half. He has two huge tumors growing and our vet thinks that it most likely is (how I hate that word!!) *Lymphoma* She doesn't give me much hope. ;~( My heart is all twisted and this is going to be a hard and long weekend for me and Harvey. I know we will be faced with that hard decision, to let him go or not. He had double adrenal surgery before he came to us and never stopped having a leaky bladder. That has meant at least a couple of sittings every day in warm water to safeguard against urine burns. My sweet boy--he took this so patiently and never failed to give mom a kiss, as to say: "thanks mom, that felt good!" This was such a treat for me since he was not a big kisser other times. It always took a lot of *bribing* to get one from him but then he also knew that if he didn't give me one, *mom was going to plant one anyway!;~) He is a big boy and was always eating like a horse and then would clean up everything the others left. He is our *give it to Mikey, he'll eat it!* boy.;~) So, when he started to leave half of his gravy in the bowl, I knew something is ailing him. We were even weighing Vena Cava Ligation for him if he got worse but not till then. We were told that his right remains of adrenal tissue was causing the leakage and the only thing left was *Vena Cava Ligation* But again, only a last resort. Now this will not be an option anymore. Since about week , I noticed that his bladder was leaking continuously, so, to the vet we go for X-rays. Two huge tumors and not given much hope! It is just breaking our hearts again! I'm just so glad that we had this past time with him and I could give him all the love and care, cuddle and kisses that I could muster. I don't want him to leave me , not yet ...but I wont be selfish either. All my kids have this promise * I will not let them suffer* This is why this is such a hard decision. Do we go in and remove the tumors....give him that chance, only to give him another month? After probing and prodding yesterday, he was in pain all evening. I would definitely not let him go on like that. The vet gave me some pain relieve for him and he had a good night. This morning he's wobbling around the house much better but is not eating but what I feed him from my finger. The tumor is pressing on his stomach and he wont be able to eat large amounts at one time.He cant go on like that either. I'm just not a person to give up hope so fast. Could it not be, that if the tumors were gone, it would relieve a lot of pressure and he could be with me for another year? I have already talked with the vet about letting him go on the table if she sees no hope for him. So far, there is no definite proof of lymphoma, that's why I try to justify sending him to surgery. I will feel guilt if I do- and I will feel guilt if I don't. I'm sure so many of you have been in that awful situation. Just how many times can a heart be broken? Can I stand this 20 more times?.. Not without help from my ferret friends. Thank you truly for your prayers! Helga The One whose Motor Runs On Ferret Kisses [log in to unmask] [log in to unmask] Helga The One whose Motor Runs On Ferret Kisses [log in to unmask] [log in to unmask] [Posted in FML issue 3934]