Wednesday is clearly one of the saddest days of my life...my precious Gizmo passed away too young. He went for a biopsy surgery Tuesday and when I went to the vet (2 1/2 hours away, so I stayed overnight in the same town) The Doctor came out and motioned me to come into the room. I knew immediately and cried out" no, no, not my Gizmo" My heart is truly shredded to pieces and bleeding for my little furball. His necropsy revealed his lung had collapsed during the night and they came in to find him dead in the morning. How can I live with joy without my Gizmo? I begged them to let me take him with me after he recovered from surgery, even said I would keep him at the motel with me and bring him back in the morning for them to check him, but they said not a good idea.....so my most precious baby died along during the night, scared and without me... oh this is too much to bear...I let him down! Gizmo did not deserve this...he was my best ferret...never started a fight ...always was gentle to all the newcomers that I rescued....Baby I will always love and miss you and never will you be forgotten. I hope and pray that my pain subsides one day. It was a long car ride home 2 1/2 hours bringing my baby back home....but not the way I thought I would be. Instead of helping him to recover I now will have to put him to rest. I know he is gone out of his body, but I can't seem to let go of it, like it is the last thing I have that is him. I have never cried so much in my life and it was the longest ride home I have ever endured. Sandee....please take care of Gizmo at the bridge....he was the most beautiful little blaze boy I have ever seen, with a big pink nose and beautiful ruby eyes...such a gentle boy, gone too young at only 3 years. I had never before experienced so much joy filling my heart just to look at this boy...he was truly my one joyous gift in this life...there will never be another like him.....I will always love you Gizmo. Broken hearted with much grief, your mom.....Lynn Barker Bandit and Mitzi miss you too. [Posted in FML issue 3890]