Amy & Dave, I fully understand how you feel. I cried everynight when my Eppers was missing. I walked/walked and walked some more, hoping to get a glimpse of him. Call out to Tasha with your heart, and tell her to look for you, while you are looking for her. I printed fliers with stories and pictures of Eppy, and walked for 3 + hours one Saturday, door to door, canvasing our neighborhood. Also printed a picture of him on transfer paper, and put it on an oversized sweatshirt/something i could wear over everything, so people could identify me with whom i was looking for, it was chilly then, but thank goodness a mild winter, the elements were in our favor. IT is hard, losing a beloved companion, either way, to death or escape. Don't stop believing that you will find her, even though each day, you will see things that can frighten the daylights out of you, you will become even more aware of the dangers that lurk outside that safe haven tucked away behind closed doors, but dismiss them, there is no proof, just keep on hoping, praying, and sending those heartfelt messages of love and looking. Get the word out to the public that you are looking for her, and be consistent. Get the mail carriers involved, the people who are always in the neighborhood, who are going all around. Radio stations/television, any one who will be interested in helping, and ads in the lost and found. And keep the people on the fml posted, lest they may think she is found, themselves. I got some good responses from many who wrote me, and they know who they are, i got a tarot reading/phone Kim Wolf / [log in to unmask] ( i think this is right) If not do a search, mention Eppy , and ask if she would consider a reading for you, ONLY if you are interested. I even had a psychic reading, but ...she saw him under a porch, when you get a lead like that, you begin to realize JUST HOW MANY HOMES HAVE PORCHES!, your awareness of life, in the city or where ever you are, and what you never paid much attention to before, if that helps, pursue it, what ever it takes to give you a lead, some place to start looking, it can become frustrating and confusing, especially when it is as overwhelming as this, i got many leads that were dead ends, but i never gave up. Eppers was very much loved and very important to me. Communicate through your heart, like i did, and pray a lot. IT can be overwhelming, for you and for one so small. Prayerfully donna / Eppers and the gang [Posted in FML issue 3844]