First I wanted to thank everyone who emailed me with advice, thoughts, prayers, cards, and well wishes for my little Jenna. She had her exploratory surgery on Thursday. A large tumor was found attached to her liver, and another large tumor was found attached to her intestines. She is home with me now, but she will not survive with this. I don't quite know yet how I am going to get through this. My heart feels like it has been ripped out and she isn't even gone yet. God, I am dreading that day. I am so thankful for this list. You all understand what it is like to have your hearts owned by these beautiful creatures. My friends and family just don't get it. I don't expect much understanding from them through all this. My mom doesn't even understand why I can't go out all day with her because I have to be home to feed Jenna because she isn't back to eating without it being offered to her on a spoon yet. I know the reality of it is I will get through this, but man, it is going to be so hard!! I just need to enjoy the very short time I have left with her every moment I can, and treasure everything about this sweet, sweet girl. Kelly White Southampton, Massachusetts "And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end The way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could've missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance" [Posted in FML issue 3801]