Sandee, Please see to it that Spaz, Loki, Charlotte, and Sampson are there to help their brother cross over. About a month and a half ago, Rainbow had a seizure. I knew what was wrong and gave him some honey, and he came around. The next two weeks I fed him chicken gravy in the morning and at night. Then we went in to surgery a little over a month ago. There were a lot of tumors on/in his pancreas. Dr. Demanes debulked as much as we thought safe to do. I was hoping that I would get a few more years with him. He never really came back to himself after the surgery. It seemed the only thing he enjoyed was eating his duck soup. About two days ago I noticed that not only is he deaf, but now he was blind too. This morning I fed him at 7:00 am gave him his chicken gravy and his pred. At 11:00 he went into a screaming seizure. That is the most God awful thing I have heard. I tried to bring him out of it with honey and more gravy, but he couldn't eat. The honey did no good and the seizure wouldn't stop. At 11:15 with the help of Dr. Demanes we helped my boy to the bridge. I apologize for writing so much, I guess I just needed to get it out. Sandee please gather the troops waiting there to help him. He took another piece of me with him today. Ron [Posted in FML issue 3766]