Epimetheus: Greek for "hindsight" Still today Eppy is missing, "hindsight" being his mothers pall. I am the one responsible for his well being, and now "I" have "hindsight"? There is not a bit of bashing,that can outweight, what i have been doing to myself, alone. I have sought prayers, from many and since i have so little time to devote to his search, i have enlisted the help of others who may well speed up this task. I have enlisted the help of a woman, who has never done a reading in search of a lost ferret, before. IT was a phone reading, and i have a drawn picture of where i can search, where this woman feels that he may be, she can be right or she can be wrong, but that is up to me to decide when, (mabey never?) to give up this pursuit. I have been encourage by so many, and i am driven to find my little lost boy. DRIVEN! The shame i have brought upon myself, to be given a life, to hold close and dearly to me, and now this. I have opened my home, to many unwanted ferrets, i have learned alot about these wonderful little elongated bodies of fur and paws and teeth too, have had the opportunity to laugh, to cry, and to share my consolation (as if that is enough), with others. But my constitution remains strong, i will when i am given the opportunity, continue to seek out guidance, and help from that which we cannot see, but with our hearts and our mind, assistance to help me find my little lost boy. Or eventually make peace with him in my heart, through an animal communicator, for i cannot forgive my "hindsight"./ nor myself, for this. Stoic, i sure have a lot to learn from a ferret, about that! I have sank far enough into the depths of despair, nearly to lose my job...Eppy wouldn't want that for his mommy, he only wants me to find him. Where ever he may be. Still missing Eppy. I really wish i had joyous news to share, i am still working 40+ hrs, and also a 2nd job...so i am pushing the envelope so to speak? Who knows where the breaking point is now...There are just little cracks that seep now and then, into the psyche, bring renewed aches to my heart, and sobs to my throat. i am deeply ashamed. Dedicate to the lost/homeless/unwanted and wanted little ones, your time/love and whatever you can think of. There are many wonderful shelter people out there, just get to meet some of them. And also many wonderful ferret mommies and daddies, too. My Best regards to all of you Donna/Eppy's mommy @ the Rainbow Bridge is waiting Athena: goddess of Wisdom/War Odysseus: a hero Angel :little lostgirl/found [Posted in FML issue 3626]