Hello all, it's been quite some time since I posted. I have been busy with school and ferret issues and haven't even been reading the FML for a few months. I hope y'all are doing ok. A lot has happened in my ferret family. My last post was about Pharaoh...insulinoma...had to put him out of his misery in November. And that was exactly what it was misery. I will always think that I put all of my animals down too soon regardless of if there is anything that can be done for them (I always do what I can to save them) or not. But to sit and watch as they get worse and worse and listen to them moan and cry...I can't do that. I know what misery is and when I was there I pleaded for someone to take me out to the deer lease or where ever and put me down. I do what I can to save my animals...and other peoples animals for that matter but I will not let my furry children suffer a moment longer then they have to. Which leads me to what has happened since the loss of Pharaoh. About a month or so ago my boyfriend brought me a new baby in hopes to cheer me up about my lost. Very nice thought that went to he**. Scooder is an ECE carrier. He got everyone sick. I thought Tavi and Booger where going to die but with medical care the got better. Then Jasper started to go down hill (They all stopped eating to some extent and I had to force feed them). Anyway Jas got horribly ill and while he was at the vet his kidneys stopped working and they did blood tests and x-rays and found that he had cancer all over the place. Why would I want to put him through the hell of chemo just to keep him around for me for a few more weeks (it was really too late to do anything to help him anyway). I think that would be selfish of me. Then Tavi took a nose dive and had to stay at the vet's for several days. She is better now as are Booger and Vex. But during the process of getting everyone healthy again we found that Vex has insulinoma as did Pharaoh. He is on meds and will be on them until he is no longer happy/crying. I do what I can to save my animals.. I love them why would I do anything less but there is a point where you have to draw the line. They depend on me to care for them and determine what is best and that is exactly what I do. New topic ....what the heck is goin on here? I come back and there is just mean, close minded posts here. We are here to share our lives, happiness and sorrow, and support one another. This isn't a place for rudeness or any of the stuff that has been goin on here lately. Opinions are opinions, I may not like what you have to say and I will state my points in a rebuttal (sp??) but remember it all boils down to helping each other to help the critters we all love so dearly. Get over it. Laura Tavi, Booger, Vex and Scooder....missing Pharaoh and Japser very much. [Posted in FML issue 3394]