Jasper was my bilateral adrenal guy who was not doing well. His BUN level was at 116 when I had his electrolytes/chems tested. I had him at the vets from last wednesday til monday to try subq fluids to flush him. On Friday his level was at 75. When I went and saw him on Sat, he did not look good at all, but we were still hopefull. Monday when I called to check on him and the said the Dr. wanted to talk to me, I knew it was not good. His BUN was back in the 90's even after 6 days of fluids. I made that heartbreaking decision to not let him suffer anymore. His Dr. said maybe we could try more, but I knew it was not fair to him even though I wanted more time with him. I brought him home so he could see his home again & to say goodbye to his buddies. When he first got home he actually had a bit of pep in him and got into some mischief in the livingroom. My SO kept asking me if I was sure, cause look at him exploring! I guess you are never really sure are you? We took some pictures of him, and in some of them you can see the old Jasper looking out. By the time we had to go back you could see it in his face. He was tired, his little body wanted to rest. I put him on his snuggle sack and got some pics of his buddies saying goodbye. On the car ride he sat in his sack with his head sticking out, calm & quiet. He was always such a good boy. I told him how much I loved him, and how sorry I was. It is hard not to feel like I failed him. I gave him a few cheerios before his shot, and after his shot he had a last lick of ferretone and was gone. It was very peaceful. I love all my fuzzies, but Jasper went a little deeper in my heart. You hate to admit it, but sometimes one of them touches you more. I think with the past month especially with the feedings, vet visits, etc. it brought me even closer. He wasn't even 3 years old. I am having him cremated and bought the little urn with the ferret figurine on it from The Ferret Store, so he will always be with me. I told my SO that if I died before him, I want all the little urns placed with me. Sorry about the long post, & Dr. Williams I appreciated your replys, I have kept all the info I have gathered, but I hope I never need it. Prayers & thoughts to all you have sick fuzzies or have recently (or not recently) lost fuzzies. ~Amy~ & The 3 Fuzzy of Butts with Jasper watching over [Posted in FML issue 3316]