Well, it has taken me a few days to be able to do this, but Buzz had to be put to sleep Friday. He had battled Insulinoma and Cardiomypathy, grew extremely fat, so fat that it was thought he had Lymphoma also, since his lymph nodes under his arm seemed to be the size of tennis balls. It was the hardest decision that I have ever had to make, but he told me he was ready to go. He had been steadily going downhill, he did have some good moments after being diagnosed, but hasn't really had any good moments the past couple of months. Friday morning he appeared to be in great pain, and refused his food and medication. I couldn't see him go on like this any longer. I really couldn't believe how hard it was to have him put to sleep, nor, how hard it is even to think about him right now. He lived 9 mths longer than I expected, and many more months than the vets expected. We did all that we could for him. His insulinoma tumors were at least an inch in diameter on his pancreas. I have created a memorial page for him, its at: http://www.geocities.com/vlh1/special.html -- Vicki L. Henderson-aka-Ferret Fanatic Ferret Xmas Ornaments: http://members.home.net/ferretfanatic Woody, Miss Tizzy, Ginger Snap & General Kaos! Buzz-who will always be in our hearts The Fearless FLO! http://www.geocities.com/vlh1 Ferret Cross Stitch! http://www.geocities.com/ferretfanatic ICQ: 11898312 [Posted in FML issue 2989]