Jodi I can't say that I know how horrible you must feel. I've come close, a few times, to having something terrible happen because of my own negligence or failure to remember to do something before allowing the fuzzies in an area. I can say that you are only human. In my belief there was only one who was perfect and made no mistakes in his lifetime. (As far as I can determine he didn't have pet ferrets.) In everything, no matter how terrible and unfair, there is a greater purpose. Gather your fuzzies and love them. You'll get thru this. Debi Christy [Posted in FML issue 2985]