My thanks to all of you who have tried to cheer me up over the death of
Wolf for the last few days.  I truly needed your kind words, jokes,
prayers, and thoughts.  I have sadly had some things occur I find so
disturbing I may go off the FML list.  I have been able to sleep but a
little.  So I apologize if there is a single person I did not respond to.
 
If I feel that I cannot safely say goodbye, and just stop writing: I want
to thank the many of you on this list.  Most people who have a love for
animals are, in general, I believe, kinder and softer in a world that can
be harsh and warped.  It is that kindness and softness I so admire in so
many of you.
 
I have read your stories of humor, the tragic losses,and I feel the fear
you feel when the little one is ill.  I cry when I read of the deaths.But
they did not die without US coming to know at least a little about that
dear friend AND your love.  Your baby did not die alone.You' re not alone
in your grief..  Many of us have been there at the funeral in your heart.
 
YOU are here at the funeral in my heart.  Sometimes we are laughing.
Sometimes we are both remembering.  Sometimes we are crying.
 
It is THAT softness: that sharing of spirit that I want to remember in you.
In US.
 
I am extremely tired.  And I am honestly afraid.
I will ask God to take this cup from me tonight.
 
Lisette
 
P.S.
As I have just recieved e-mails at home, and just read the FML:
 
**On April 15th I clearly wrote the name of the pet store and its location
that had baby ferrets with their eyes still closed so that all who wished
to call there could.**
 
This is not the first time what I have written has either been left out or
twisted by certain people on this list that I no longer read.  It is only
one of several important reasons I feel truly unwell reading their
writings.
 
PLEASE try not to ask me questions based on what people that I find
unreadable are writing should I remain with all of you..
 
There are two of you that wrote tonight to say that outside of the FML,
these people appear to be nice.  Really nice.  I am afraid there will be
more of this.
 
Please let us not write off-line again of people who write in such a way,
I actually literally feel physically unwell.
 
Thank you.
Lisette
[Posted in FML issue 3040]