This is for those who know me. I don't have the heart right now to post
this on a bunch of boards. Saturday night my fiance, Josh and I lost my
little miracle baby Flease at 11:30 pm. Please could someone just let
me know she got to the bridge okay.

For those who don't know Flease, we adopted her and her partner from
Rocky's Ferret Rescue almost five years ago with her partner Samantha.
Flease was guessed to be four when we adopted her, and her partner
Samantha, which was the only ferret she would accept, was almost
nine. Flease was found in a dumpster and you would not have guessed
due to the fleas and dirt she was and Albino. I fell in love with both
Samantha and Flease the moment I saw them, and I changed her name from
Fleas to Flease. We lost Samantha about six months after we adopted
them due to old age. We thought we would have lost Flease then, and we
had to work very hard to get her to want to stay alive. For two months
after, if I went to the video store, drive thru, or anywhere pretty
much she went with me. She was my baby and I couldn't just let her go
due to depression, so my fiance and I did everything possible to make
her happy. Needless to say she made it through the odds.

Flease was diagnosed about a year later with adrenal disease. We opted
to due Melatonin since that was the latest research and Flease was
already getting up in age where surgery was risky. Two years ago she
was diagnosed with Insulinomac. About a year ago we gave her a sub-q
after she crashed, and because oh her age and the fact she was on
prednisone she got an abscess. She ended up having to have emergency
surgery to heal her neck, and we decided since she miraculously made it
through that we were not going to risk having that happen again, and
were going to try to manage her disease by feeding. So every morning,
since she stopped eating kibble completely, I or my fiance gave her
food and proceeded to feed her pretty much every four hours of
everyday. Today will be the first day in almost a year I will not have
to rush home during lunch to feed her and it's killing me. She outlived
and survived the odds, and it was finally her time. She was held in
between both of our arms, as she gave her last sigh. I miss you so much
Fleasey baby, and this poem is for you.

Time to Say Goodbye

One last time you take a breath,
You release it with a sigh,
I now know it's time to say goodbye

I miss you presence by my side,
The way you look at me when I laughed or cried,
The gentle love you gave,
How can I ever repay,
All I can do is pray

I pray today you are no longer in pain,
That you are no longer the same,
I pray that you are whole, that you dance and play,
That we see each other again, though not today

I love you,
And I miss you so,
I wish you didn't have to go,
I know it was right,
It doesn't mean it not hard to let you out of my sight,
So for now I say goodnight

[Posted in FML 5503]