Dearest Bridge greeters,

How can i write to you when my precious girl is just now lying in the
ground. My heart is so very shattered beyond help. My Candy is on her
way to you. She died in my arms from some internakl hemmorhage i'm sure.
Her Dr. told me althought it was certain she had lymphoma, she will
be around for a long time. 5 months is not a long time! Candy was only
2 1/2 yrs old. I adopted her from our shelter. Before she had to take
pred for her lymphoma she was so tiny. Today, when i picked her up from
her bed, she semed very sleepy. Later that day, she ws still the same,
but sleeping reastfully in my arms. 1.2 hr before she died she let out
a tiny squeek, then started acting as if she hurt I had her in my arms,
getting ready to go to the emergency when she took her last breath. Her
belly had grown and it was hard. I failed her. I didn't get her to the
vet in time. I promised her I wouldn't let her hurt, but she never
appeared to be in pain at all until that last 20 mins or so. I'm soo
sorry Candy. I was getting ready to go. She died quickly but not
peacefully in my arms. She is now pain free-no more meds. This was not
supposed to happen for a long time. I'm in shock. So much so that I
don't even know if i'm making sense.

Please Bridge greeters, tell her i'm sorry, tell her that she could
never be loved more by anyone. I only got the priviledge of calling
her my baby when she was 1 year old and I got herfrom the shelter.
IT'S NOT FAIR!

She should be there by now. We called her Candy cane. She got her
favorite jingle mouse and two of her beloved furry balls. Even as
short as 2 hrs ago she hid one, she loves those so much.

I will miss her more than you will ever know, more than she will ever
know. And more than my heart can take. Each and evry night of hr life
with me, when she went to bed, i always kisssed her behind her ear and
whispwered, mommy loves you. My tiny little girl, my baby girl, my
Candy. Goodnite, Mommy loves you.

Sue Pyron
Hide not amongst the shadows of grief,
but frolick openly in the meadow of memories.

[Posted in FML 6904]