Funny, I woke up this morning thinking about one I had lost, Zip, to
her digging into the maybe a little bigger than a 1/2" gap into the
insulation and side of the stove, to the back where she was
electrocuted.

Now - we had seen white pieces of insulation, but they looked like toy
stuffing, which at the time, they put their toys under there. So we
didn't realize. There was never insulation hanging out of the gap. She
was the smallest ferret I have ever seen in my life. We never figured
she would get in that, with the small measurement. But it happened.

The agony I went through, and still go through today, over that loss.
It is not just losing a pet, but knowing that I let it happen. I hate
myself, I always will, and every few months I'll wake up and think
about her and have a very bad day or week due to remembering about her
and how I failed her.

I'm not saying that it's not a huge loss to just lose a fuzzy. But when
it is your own fault....it's a thousand times worse. I thought I would
just give everyone away, but I didn't. It still hurts and maybe I do
need to see someone but I imagine it's just going to hurt just the same
as losing a child...

L

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