Oh Judy,
For all that you do for everyone else, now it is the time when you need
everyone else.  But I know, that even if every single person and their
spouses, or significant others, or their friends, on this FML, sent a
card to you, telling you how very sorry they were, although it would let
you know just how much they cared, I know that this, or really not much
of anything else, could ease the pain of that deep, dark void that
Tyson's passing has left in your heart.
 
I truly am sorry.  I know that Kringle's passing, days after your Tyson's
stopped me cold in my tracks.  I had plans that I just dropped.  I felt
so empty.  .  It has always seemed so amazing to me that these little
1,2, 3,+ pound little beings have such a profound effect on a human so
many 100-s + pounds more than themselves.
 
I could go on and on, grasping for the right words, for which there are
none, writing empty sentenses of trite little cliches proclaiming things
will get better, but I won't.  I won't because I know that on this day, I
am sure of one thing about you.  If your grief is even one tenth of the
amount of help, and kindness that you give to everyone, then I know that
you would like nothing more than to find a cave somewhere, crawl in, and
not come out for months, and months.  As far as you feeling so much
better in time goes, I still cry today for Princess, nearly as much as I
did when she first left, 2 years ago.  I miss her so very much, so that
is not always the answer either.  But, people try.  People try anyway,
like me, even though I said I wouldn't.  They try so hard to find the
right words, because people of the FML are like no other group of people.
Each and every individual in this wonderful family of ours have hearts
bigger than anyone I have ever known.  Their capacity to love and to care
about each other leaves me awestruck.  That's why you, Judy will get an
outpouring of condolences, because so many people, including myself, care
so much about you.  You give of yourself so much, helping us, helping
ferrets, and now it's our turn to at least try to help you..
 
I can only say, if it makes any difference at all is that I truly am so,
so sorry.  I wish I could find that cave for you.
 
You are in my heart.
Sue
[Posted in FML issue 5090]