Caution. Sad. sigh.
Over the weekend Sharp-toothe started bleeding from her rectum.  I called
Larry and he suggested Carafate every 2 hours.  I had her on Carafate and
Pepto, alternating every other hour but we couldn't stop the bleeding.  Her
mouth had purple spots on the sides and on her tongue with a little bit of
blood coming from her nose and mouth.  She couldn't eat without trying to
throw up so we were at just a few cc's every other hour.  I was thinking
gastric ulcer, possibly perforated.  When we got to Larry's the diagnosis
was much worse.  Larry could feel a growth on her colon... Prognosis was
poor and Larry said it was time.... I wasn't prepared.... I thought we'd
be able to do something for her.... she was only 5 1/2.... my little dark
sable canadian girl.... I didn't want her to suffer and since I couldn't
get the blood stopped..... we let her go..... earlier in the day she'd been
responding to my nursing a bit, she asked to be let out of the nursing cage
and the sub-q helped her to be more comfortable... but I couldn't stop the
bleeding.... Now I feel that I made the wrong decision... I should have
kept trying... Oh god this is so painful... Sharp-toothe I'm so very sorry
for your pain and if I made the wrong decision....
 
Skat and Capri were 2 that had heart ailments.  Capri had quit eating
completely and her skin was turning blue, for her we knew it was time.
Skat was having such difficulty breathing and the Lasix was dehydrating
him so much and he still had fluid around the heart... but he wanted to
live... he'd walk to the kitchen, stopping every few steps and laying
down... then he'd go to the cereal bowl (Marshmallow Mateys) and eat a
bite, hang his head to rest, then eat another bite.... but he wasn't going
to get better... his breathing was all that was keeping his heart going...
it would stop, he'd breathe and it would start again.... we let him go
too...
 
With each death it gets more difficult and it hurts so much more.  Lynda
asked me if it made me want to stop and I said No, I'd never thought of
stopping what I do.  For me, there is no amount of personal pain that would
make me turn my back on those ferrets that need me.  Tears come more easily
and it feels as if my heart is being torn apart for days at a time....
 
I ask again that in memory of our little ones that have left, please spend
some extra special time with your little ones and give them a hug.
 
Oh, and last night the plumbing clogged again causing the wash machine to
flood the basement....
 
Hugs to all. tle
Troy Lynn Eckart
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[Posted in FML issue 3197]