I have never felt such a pain as I have the past 48 hours. I just moved into a new place and I haven't been here for more then a month. I thought the place was ferret proofed..... I found a hole and covered it and the 18 ferrets had been out several times before as I cleaned their cages. As I started to put up the first 12, I found a hole in the floor I had not seen before. My heart dropped, I woke my husband and put the ferrets aways as I counted. I only let the last 6 out not even five minutes before... As I panicked, I realized I just saw Little Girl not even 5 minutes ago... Where is she,??? Where is my little Deaf panda BoBo? Where is little miss trouble, my Snow-White, No-White? OH MY GOD!! The horror hit me. I ran outside, my husband searched the house, I searched outside,and thought to myself "OH MY GOD BoBo can't even hear me, its 1 am how are we ever going to find him? The girls are white and a creamy-white, we should be able to find them." As I searched outside I realized I didn't have a squeaker, the girls come to a squeaker... They will hear me, but what about Bobo??? He can't hear!!! As my panic sets in my husband goes to my neighbor and best friend who is a fellow ferret lover herself.... She brings out a couple of squeakers and she joins the hunt. By this time we are 25-40 minutes into it. They are no where to be found. Found a bunny rabbit... Damn it!!!! Where are they? The dogs start to bark, then my good friend says I am going to pin the dogs up.... The next thing I hear is a scream, "the dogs got her! I am so sorry the dogs got her!" I ran to the gate, couldn't even open it, I guess I was too panicked, she screams as she brings me her warm lifeless body! I scream to my husband find Bobo and my other baby girl before its too late, I run to my house the whole time I am begging and pleading with God to let my other babies be safe and found. I get in my house and I cry and I hold her telling her how sorry I am. "I am so sorry! I am so sorry! I love you so much!" The tears are so strong, I can't even tell who I am holding, I originally thought it was Snow white, by this time I realize that I am holding my Little Girl. Less then 5-10 minutes later my husband walks in and he is holding BoBo, - think to myself "he is so still, there is no blood wait... Wait.... He's alive? He's ALIVE! Wait where... Oh My God.... Where is my baby? Where is my Snow-white?" Then, as I hold my Little Girls lifeless body.. He tells me. "They got Snow-White too. She's gone" I lay little girl on our bed in a blanket and I walk toward my husband, as he holds Bobo, I scream and I feel my body trying to fall. My body .. I can't even stand up.. My heart hurts so bad! He holds me as I scream and cry. My husband tells me Bobo was hiding but when he saw his Daddy he came right out and he was shaking and he was scared and grateful. Anyone who tells me a deaf ferret can't be grateful or traumatized is craZy and wrong. I cry. I am sick to my stomach, my heart is broken, ripped apart. My husband takes Little Girls lifeless body and the blanket. He and my friend find a nice box and put them together and wrap them up together... So they will Never be alone. My husband digs a hole as I hold the light sobbing... He is crying as he digs the hole. Finally, several hours later, the hole is done and now I have to say goodbye. I can't look at Snow White. We say our goodbyes as we cry our eyes out. We bury the girls and go back inside to check on Bobo and we go to bed. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up and I cry. I see white and I cry. There was a rug covering the hole.. Then the rug moved and there was THE HOLE !!! Damn it why?? Why did it have to be there? Did she try to come to the squeaker and the dogs got her as she ran toward the squeaks? Did I kill them? I know I failed them. I am supposed to keep them safe. I failed my girls... I have lost ferrets before but not like this. Old age, illness. But not like this! They were taken from me! Those dogs took my babies! I am so sad. I hate it! Everything I see that is white makes me see my girls and I start crying all over again. Snow White and Little Girl... You two will forever be in my heart and I will never forget u two! We miss u so much and so does Blaze, Bobo, Angora, Segundo, Fatty, Maxwell, Lita, Shy-Girl, Sebastian, Ricochet, Tweedle Dee, Zeek, Eden, Angel, Lexy, and Jazzy. Harvest and Tweedle Dumb will help you in and show u the ropes. Thank u all for listening! [Posted in FML 6888]